Maybe one day we will find a way to be "friends only".
Keeping this up right now only makes both of us go crazy. Since that is what is happening, at least with me. I get annoyed. I feel pushed. I feel like crap. I feel like he is on my nerves all the time. I feel like I don't want to see him.
I have been avoiding him lately, can admit that, not without a reason though. Can not continue like this, it has to stop soon.
BUT - I somehow love him even though I hate him.
How can I both love and hate someone so much at the same time? I have to stop this before I start to hate myself for it.
I have to put an end to this since it is probably the best for both of us.