2003-ish: my words on teaching

"The teaching during the previous months. I liked it.

Perhaps I will become a teacher some day."

18 april

Passed that sociology exam.

"Min vän hade kritvita tänder.

Hans kläder luktade rök.

Så levande att det ibland känns

som om det är jag som är död."

time?

So, after some years (11 or so, since sometime 1999) I kind of gave up. Bought a watch. Can no longer completely escape from time and its changes. Well well, if it gets too much I'll just ignore it again for some time.

"Mina tankar är det sista som ni tar."

"oba ob..."

"oba, ob-serving the hypocrites

as they would mingle with the good people we meet"

soooooo true!

"As for the shitty book, it SUCKS whenever you have to study from an absolutely SHITTY book. You're supposed to gain knowledge from a rectangle paper piece of shit which is actually partially responsible for the deforestation of the earth." (the Greek bat)

Damn, this is good. Respect.

Oh yes

Errare humanum est, sed perseverare diabolicum.

Forgive and forget, I forgive and forget.

seeing "ghosts"?

I just saw a "ghost" (perhaps "something that can not be" would be a good replacement for the word "ghost" since I don't really believe that there is such thing).

Time stopped for a second or two. So this is how it feels.

"High on diesel and gasoline, psycho for drum machine
shaking their bits to the hits.
Drag acts, drug acts, suicides, in your dad's suits you hide
staining his name again.
Cracked up, stacked up, 22, psycho for sex and glue,
lost it to Bostik, yeah.
Shaved heads, rave heads, on the pill, got too much time to kill,
get into bands and gangs."

"I hear you calling and it's needles and pins (and pins)

I want to hurt you just to hear you screaming my name."

Gimme Friday back. Or something.

"soon as in my soon? or soon as in a regular soon? or soon-soon?"

I am soon to be done with my end-of-May list. Going to grab some food (without wine...) and then hopefully finishing things off! 

*lala-la-la*

lite random sådär

"Vi tror gärna att antidemokratiska lagar stiftas för att skydda mediaindustrin. Men tänk om mediaindustrin bara är ett svepskäl för att kunna stifta lagarna?"

Dancek

Tänk vad man kan hitta om man bara smurfar runt lite, sådär planlöst utan egentligt mål bland debattinlägg, bloggpostningar och liknande.

yet another Thursday...

Surgery supposed to happen today was moved again. Wonder when it will finally will be kicking off?

Thursday again. I should really do something about my growing list of things to do (by some reason it tends to grow on Tuesdays/Thursdays). Perhaps I can manage to remove some items from it before the weekend...and spend the weekend doing something else than digging myself through it.

"Den som lever får se."

randomly captured

Discussed photography the other day, and the fact that I during some periods take a lot of random photos. The one below is just one of the recent ones, a car accident photo from Vienna.

Usually bring a camera along, does not mean that I use it though. Just means that if I want to capture something, then I can. Randomly captured photos usually "win" over arranged photos. At least over here.

"Wanting to be someone you're not, is a waste of the person you are."
Kurt Cobain

snow, illness, Bo Kaspers, ...

Already March...Previous days have been more or less devoted to 

1) getting less ill;

2) removing snow from where it shouldn't be.

These two things don't go well together. I can say that the snow is no longer where it's annoying me, but my illness is still around without getting much better :(

Soooooo stupid.

"och sen så spelade dom en gammal sång
om ett par som lämnat allt bakom sig"

[Bo Kaspers Orkester]

*brr*

-10 degrees outside. Snowing. No sun, daylight. Power is back again. No warm water inside though. House is cold. Heating system is down, being repaired at the moment.

I am wrapped in the blue blanket. Once again. 1.5 years. 

"we just have time to kill, time to kill"

*tick-tack tick-tack*

comes a time, when you are...

The previous days have just passed by, don't know where they have gone. All of a sudden it's Thursday evening. And I feel completely brain-dead, as if I need to restart my brain. Or perhaps only sleep a bit more? But what can I do, I can not sleep more. Can not fall asleep earlier and can not sleep longer in the mornings. Stress? Perhaps.

I am so relieved, her surgery went well. My dear additional grandmother should now be ok and soon on her way back home again. Hopefully. My father's upcoming surgery on the other hand - don't ask.

"Comes a time,
when you're driftin'
Comes a time,
when you settle down"
(yep, that's Neil Young)

The Perishers - Nothing like you and I

"We spent some time
together walking.
Spent some time just talking
about who we were.
You held my hand so
very tightly.
And told me what we
could be dreaming of.

There’s nothing like you and I.

We spent some time
together drinking.
Spent some time just thinking
about days of joy.
As our hearts started
beating faster.
I recalled your laughter
from long ago.

There’s nothing like you and I.

We spent some time
together crying.
Spent some time just trying
to let each other go.
I held your hand so
very tightly.
And told you what I would be
dreaming of.

There’s nothing like you and I.
So why do I even try?
There’s nothing like you and I."

Random Friday in November

Bank app is finally working again, days are getting shorter, the snow is falling, the temperature is dropping, houses still being renovated, father still in waiting line for surgery, list of things to do is still growing...

"och jag som en gång sålde själen för att vara
att vara med om just sådannahära stunder
jag ångrar ingenting
men tiden kommer när man ska betala
innan allt försvinner, försvinner"

Bo Kaspers Orkester

lalala-la-la shadowman

Crazy as we are, we saw some old episodes of Twilight Zone last night - I hadn't seen these specific episodes in ages! Gosh, things related to how tv shows and similar are being produced have changed quite a lot the past couple of decades! Quality, methods yadayada!
Anyway, the episodes were quite entertaining even though they were not close to how they appeared the very first time I saw them!

*twilight zone tune in background* ;)

"I am the Shadowman, and I will never harm the person under whose bed I live."

So, do you have a shadowman living underneath your bed?

evenings getting dark, again :(

Can't really believe it but the evenings start to be dark again. Just noticed that it's before midnight and slightly dark + that they have turned on the streetlamps again!!! Come on - it's July, not September!!! What happened with our lovely summer nights?

"summer dreams ripped at the seams, but oh those summer nights"

(by Warren Casey & Jim Jacobs,
single released in 1978)

another step along the way

Halfway there, or perhaps a bit less BUT at least finally moving into a good direction again after being lost in the dark & unknown for I don't know how long time. First steps of the "application procedure" are taken - now I only wait for them to reply. Again. Then the next step. Just like earlier today.

All of this due to one of those "suddenly you wake up one day and realise that 'life' is not what you want it to be anymore" moments.

"soon as in my soon? or soon as in a regular soon? or soon-soon?"
(couldn't have said it better myself)