bye-bye buzz :)

Some time ago this

appeared in my inbox.

I didn't wish to have it.

I have enough without it.

Bottom of the page had

I clicked and I am happy again.

(meaning: at least I don't have to see the shit anymore)

"bubble-ish life"?

Still think I am living in a bubble. I try to sleep when I am tired. I try to eat when I am hungry. I try to relax when I feel like I need to. I try to study and work when I am not doing anything else urgent.

Exam next week.

My body still thinks it belongs in another time zone. Lovely.

Shit, I am sleepy.

the "FRA law"

In parallel to the (damn) football game (Sweden-Russia) of tonight the FRA law was approved by the Swedish Parliament (numbers were 143-138).

Ehrm. NO further comments.

wtf - funeral broadcasted live

*boycotting funerals broadcasted live*

Tomorrow is the moment for the funeral to be held AND to be live broadcasted on TV at the same time!

What the H*** is wrong with people when they broadcast a funeral of a private person LIVE on TV?!? I should also continue with "...and what is wrong with the people watching it?!?" - since someone will watch it. How sick isn't that? A bunch of people watching a funeral of a person they did not know, never met, never heard of before she went missing and then was found murdered!

***
It is NOT the first time someone murders a child. It is NOT the last time it happens either.
Shall this with a live funeral happen each time someone gets killed? Maybe someone should start a "live funeral channel" on tv so that people can watch these things whenever they feel like it?
***

Would the very same people be as happy if someone requests that the funeral of a homeless man, who also got killed, is broadcasted live on TV? Would they be watching it?

I DOUBT IT.

Would you care for a cup of tea?

It is green. It is simple. It is old. It is one of my favourites. I almost use it on a daily manner :)

thieves

Bloody thieves. 

Someone broke into one of our summer houses, really sucks. I will probably be going there early on Thursday to check more carefully. Probably needs some kind of cleaning up actions.

What is wrong when...

...my students being 14-15 don't know if 1/3 is bigger or smaller than 1/7? Or when they say that 3.4749 has a higher value than 54.1 just because the first number has a higher number of digits involved? Or when they grab a calculator and really need it in order to determine that 5x20=100?


These were some of the things I asked myself back some years ago when I faced this problem for the first time - while I tried to teach. Now, some years later I can still ask myself the same questions. The individuals have changed but the situation is still pretty much the same. Something really is wrong, even if some people try to get away from realising this. As long as they decide to close their eyes for this then the situation will stay the same.


I am usually trying to do something about this. Each time I teach I try to get away from ending up in the situation of "ok, open the books and start doing the exercises there without really understanding why you do it".
I am also not happy with my students using calculators during the time they do their exercises unless the exercises require the use of them.
The calculator is a really nice tool if you use it in an appropriate way. If you use it the wrong way you more or less end up in the situation above, when people can not say that 5x20=100...and I can tell you that a lot of the young people in the world has already reached this state in which they can no longer use their own brain to figure things out.


So why did I start thinking about this again? It is simple - I ran into two 14 year old girls the other day (I had these two in a geometry class some weeks ago...). Now they were really trying to figure out what they would have to pay if they bought this bag they were looking, currently having a 10% discount. So imagine the two of them standing there with a cell phone each, trying to solve this "if I take away 10% of the original price, how much do I still have to pay?" by simply using the calculator that comes with the phone!

It really made me think again and ask myself
"what is wrong with this world if this has to happen?"

In Sweden it is legal to...

...sell sexual services, but not legal to buy or even try to buy them.

How do these two worlds meet? *just asking*

We live in a...

...materialistic world and I don't think it is good for us. I know that it is not good for me, it makes me feel weird in some way. Most of all, it does not make me happy.

Have more or less been at this place for 6 months now, time passes so fast. This is the amount of time it took before I even tried to "move in". I still haven't unpacked one of my suitcases since last time I moved and I doubt that I ever will. I will most likely just throw away everything in it. Not everything is in boxes anymore around here and not everything is in a complete mess either, it is now more of an organised chaos. This place still does not feel like home either and honestly don't think it ever will.

To summarise, based upon the experience gained today:

I got too much stuff and need to get rid of some.

why, ooh why?

I recovered this one from one of my other blogs, from the past. Originally posted last year with the same name.
These lines in the beginning are all I am going to add.

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I should not need to ask, I do know.

He is no longer among us, the friend who has been going up and down lately and for some time. The past and the present became too much to handle.

Been there, done that. Been close to that line, but I found something to live for - so here I am today. Maybe not always happy, but alive.

"and I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
the dreams in which I'm dying
are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
when people run in circles
it's a very, very
mad world"

I remember the crazy, sometimes mad moments but also the sad ones: all the times when Jens was declared being a complete idiot, when he walked around at uni in the middle of the winter without shoes but in big socks instead, when he pushed me into watching Day Break for 6 hours (I kind of hate these "series") in a row, when he got me into a car with him, when he got me on that motorcycle with him, when we were running around Katwijk looking for a pharmacy, when MAX was a must-go-to -before-I-die since they had coffee and we didn't, when there was too much Kwak, when he got lost on the way from his home to mine, when we woke up together, when he was running around naked in my room looking for clothes and suddenly stopped and said "you don't happen to have a towel, do you?" before heading off to my closet looking for one, when he called in the middle of the night just to say "hey - I got it, I know how to solve it - call you in the morning" and then just hung up without saying more just for calling couple of hours later again, when he told me that things were not going to work out, when he told me about the "red ones" and I just said "I know, you don't have to tell me", when he told me that "mad world" was a nice description of his life, when he went into his "your majesty mood", ..., and all the other things not to be forgotten.

Axel - R.I.P my dear. You are and will stay in our hearts.
Miss you so much.

Everything passes with time, memories fade away even if they remain, even this I guess - but currently it hurts so much to even walk by his old house.