29 October 2008

"surviving is not enough..."

+2.1° *brr*

drops of water on tree, 20081028

Why is that people go off doing something really stupid and then complain loudly when they face the consequences of their actions? I wonder, I wonder. Life. We live, we die.

"Surviving is not enough, you have to live as well."

23 October 2008

the latest member of our family of cars

replacing the red one that got crashed...

déjà vu: sleepless nights?

The room is dark.
The window is open.
The night is pitch-black.
I hear nothing.
As if the first snow would have covered the ground.
You know.
The snow that absorbs all the noise.
Making the nights silent.
Déjà vu.
Suddenly thinking about Kiruna.
Does not happen often.
But it is in the middle of the night.
Same time as the nightly activities in Kiruna.
The place where it all started.
Started to fall apart.
Learnt so much.
Yet so little.
Want to go out.
Screaming in the night.
Knowing that it would still be silent.
As it was back then.
Life goes on.

09 October 2008

importance of...airbags

A small break in the timeout, I guess. What can I say, some people have some kind of higher power or so looking over them. My father is for sure one of those people.

Yesterday he was in a car accident. He could have been dead by now. He went straight off the road, instead of taking a curve, ended up between some birches next to the road. Crashing his car - that car will not be taken back into traffic again, that I can say after seeing it on my way to the hospital. We do not really know what happened, since my father can not remember anything from before when he suddenly were sitting in the car between the birches when the police arrived etc. So someone else thankfully made the call for the police and paramedics, they showed up (apparently quite fast), my father was put in an ambulance and sent to the hospital ASAP. Someone, not the police & co, called my uncle - him and his girlfriend came and picked me up [while I was waiting I made some phonecalls in order to prevent a chain of phonecalls later on - the place where my father lives is like that. If someone can not reach someone else they first drop by over to the house belonging to the one they are looking for and if they still can not reach the ones they are looking for after that, then they start making phonecalls, kind of like "I've been trying to reach xxx, have you seen him/her today?". This can be both annoying (if you just feel like not answering the phone for some hours, if you just want to be ALONE for a day or so) and good sometimes (if something really happens then people notice).] so that we could go all of us, in one car, to the hospital in order to find out more.

First we ended up at the emergency room, after that they sent us over to intensive care, where they then sent us to another floor where we finally found my father in a bed, slightly tired but without severe injuries - no broken bones, no internal injures after what they could see immediately etc. Airbags, airbags - good stuff, really good, what else can I say? So we spent some time with my father and then had a talk with the two doctors and a bunch of nurses, who all of them were to have a closer look at all the tests they took when he arrived, and decided that we should probably talk about things today instead of last night. So hospital later on today, AGAIN.

02 October 2008


Deal with some stuff, bury some ppl, attend some memorials, visit my father who's ill, leave the annoying stuff behind for a while. List is growing longer.

I need a break from pretty much everything,
catch you later ppl.

01 October 2008

rain, rain and some more

It's still raining, can't believe it. Been like this for many hours now, for sure 20++ hours. Ok, rainy days come and go but usually it stops at some bloody moment during them. Not today. Been raining all the time, big drops or small drops. Or medium drops if such exist.

search for the treasure!

Remove the lovely rainbow & the flowers and you get a picture of how the sky looked today :(

Stuff that annoy me at the moment:
  • people who try to control my life;
  • people who try to tell me how to live my life;
  • people who are impossible to get hold of;
  • people who are not replying on emails;
  • rain;
  • html code;
  • Internet Explorer;
  • sleepless nights;
  • timetable of train #42;
  • all the pointless tv shows like Top Model, Idol, Stjärnor på is and So you think you can dance - since they make it damn impossible to catch up with people since it seems like EVERYONE except from me LOVE that shit;
  • ...and then all the other things that I am too tired for adding to the list.