18 april

Passed that sociology exam.

"Min vän hade kritvita tänder.

Hans kläder luktade rök.

Så levande att det ibland känns

som om det är jag som är död."

"oba ob..."

"oba, ob-serving the hypocrites

as they would mingle with the good people we meet"

snow, illness, Bo Kaspers, ...

Already March...Previous days have been more or less devoted to 

1) getting less ill;

2) removing snow from where it shouldn't be.

These two things don't go well together. I can say that the snow is no longer where it's annoying me, but my illness is still around without getting much better :(

Soooooo stupid.

"och sen så spelade dom en gammal sång
om ett par som lämnat allt bakom sig"

[Bo Kaspers Orkester]

comes a time, when you are...

The previous days have just passed by, don't know where they have gone. All of a sudden it's Thursday evening. And I feel completely brain-dead, as if I need to restart my brain. Or perhaps only sleep a bit more? But what can I do, I can not sleep more. Can not fall asleep earlier and can not sleep longer in the mornings. Stress? Perhaps.

I am so relieved, her surgery went well. My dear additional grandmother should now be ok and soon on her way back home again. Hopefully. My father's upcoming surgery on the other hand - don't ask.

"Comes a time,
when you're driftin'
Comes a time,
when you settle down"
(yep, that's Neil Young)

The Perishers - Nothing like you and I

"We spent some time
together walking.
Spent some time just talking
about who we were.
You held my hand so
very tightly.
And told me what we
could be dreaming of.

There’s nothing like you and I.

We spent some time
together drinking.
Spent some time just thinking
about days of joy.
As our hearts started
beating faster.
I recalled your laughter
from long ago.

There’s nothing like you and I.

We spent some time
together crying.
Spent some time just trying
to let each other go.
I held your hand so
very tightly.
And told you what I would be
dreaming of.

There’s nothing like you and I.
So why do I even try?
There’s nothing like you and I."

"Oh it's such a perfect day,

I'm glad I spent it with you.
Oh such a perfect day,
you just keep me hanging on,
you just keep me hanging on."

I like this song in some odd way. It is even more odd that I came to think of it today though, since today has not, in general, been a perfect day at all. Perhaps a decent day, but a perfect day...naaaa been a while.

Edit 20 Jan 2009: This song is called "Perfect Day", it can be found on the album Transformer, released in 1972 by Lewis Allan "Lou" Reed.

yet another Sunday

Weeks are flying by. Don't know why but I got "Sunday bloody Sunday" on my mind since some hours. Weird since this Sunday has, all in all, not been that bad.

I am still remarkably restless and annoyed though, guess it will pass, eventually.

*tick-tack tick-tack*

evenings getting dark, again :(

Can't really believe it but the evenings start to be dark again. Just noticed that it's before midnight and slightly dark + that they have turned on the streetlamps again!!! Come on - it's July, not September!!! What happened with our lovely summer nights?

"summer dreams ripped at the seams, but oh those summer nights"

(by Warren Casey & Jim Jacobs,
single released in 1978)

Mer förvirrad än vanligtvis. Tror jag.

"Jag trivs bäst i öppna landskap, nära havet vill jag bo."

Ulf Lundell

{ tusen bitar }

Heard approximately half of this song today, on the radio while we were driving back home...brought back some good/bad memories.

Tusen bitar - Björn Afzelius

Det sägs att ovan molnen är himlen alltid blå,
men det kan va svårt att tro när man inte ser den.
Och det sägs att efter regnet kommer solen fram igen,
men det hjälper sällan dom som har blitt våta.

För när vännerna försvinner, eller kärleken tar slut,
ser man allt med lite andra ögon.
Man övar sig, och långsamt blir man bättre på att se
skillnad mellan sanningar och lögner.

Allting kan gå itu, men ett hjärta kan gå i tusen bitar.
Säger du att du är min vän så är du kanske det.
Allting kan gå itu, men ett hjärta kan gå i tusen bitar.
Säger du att du är min vän så är du kanske det.

Det sägs att det finns alltid nånting bra i det som sker,
och tron är ofta den som ger oss styrka.
Ja, man säger mycket, men man vet så lite om sig själv
när ångesten och ensamheten kommer.

För när vännerna försvinner, eller kärleken tar slut,
ser man allt med lite andra ögon.
Så man övar sig, och långsamt blir man bättre på att se
skillnad mellan sanningar och lögner.

Allting kan gå itu, men mitt hjärta kan gå i tusen bitar.
Säger du att du är min vän så är du kanske det.

La - la - la - la - aaa.

Allting kan gå itu, men mitt hjärta kan gå i tusen bitar.
Säger du att du är min vän så är du kanske det.

La - la - la - la - aaa.

Oh allting kan gå itu, men mitt hjärta kan gå i tusen bitar.
Säger du att du är min vän så är du säkert det.

korn : life : misc

got flashbacks from old times today when I heard a song from Korn

life
is sometimes like a tale
but
only if we allow it

we are going to make it this time

"...and I wait without you"

Life must go on, with or without you.

"runaway train never going back..."

"Bought a ticket for a runaway train

Like a madman laughin' at the rain

Little out of touch, little insane

Just easier than dealing with the pain"

This is what I did, maybe it was not that wise after all now when some time has passed and the effects are making themselves visible. However, done is done and nothing can reverse it.

förlåt --- ringer ikväll.

Ok?

stones & memories

Climbing walls, cleaning closets. 

That is what I have been up to for the past days. Today did just vanish, wonder what tomorrow will be like?

Stones = my current desktop picture. 

Can't help it but I love stones and springs - maybe I should have done something else with my life???

Heard this song today - almost scary how a song can bring up memories you thought were forgotten.

shadows from the past

***
Well you can tear a plane in the falling rain.
I drive a Rolls Royce 'cause it's good for my voice.
But you won't fool the children of the revolution.

***

As a shadow from the past, someone must have forgotten it. Walked by this one today and came to think of the summer, ooh some lovely summer. So far away. Maybe I should do another "Eurotrip" this summer? Anyone who wants to join me?
Spoke to my sister today, maybe I should go to Germany and visit her again soon?

Got a call from a really old friend of mine this weekend, another shadow from the past, they seem to be haunting me at the moment.

lost...and found?

***

"Jag vet du lever mitt i bland.
Fast mitt i ingenstans.
Mitt i allt det där,
du försöker ge ett namn."
***

Feeling kind of lost today, as if my head is not attached to my body, as if there is a gap there. Tired, probably forgotten to take the damn red pills again so maybe I should look for them.


Leaving for Vienna on the 25th of February, finally got myself some tickets this morning. Straight to Vienna, no stops along the way.

Ooh life...should find my way back soon.

it is a new dawn, it is a new day, it is a...

"Birds flying high
You know how I feel
Sun in the sky
You know how I feel
Breeze driftin' on by
You know how I feel

It is a new dawn
It is a new day
It is a new life for me, yea
It is a new dawn, it is a new day
It is a new life for me
Ooooh

And I am feeling good

Fish in the sea
You know how I feel
River runnin' free
You know how I feel
Blossom on the tree
You know how I feel

It is a new dawn
It is a new day
It is a new life for me

And I am feeling good

Dragonfly out in the sun
You know what I mean, don't you know
Butterflies all having fun
You know what I mean
Sleep in peace when day's done, that is what I mean

And this old world
Is a new world
And a bold world for me, yeah, yeah

Stars when you shine
You know how I feel
Scent of the pine
You know how I feel
Oh, freedom is mine
And I know how I feel

It is a new dawn
It is a new day
It is a new life for me

And I am feeling good
Oh, I am feeling good!"

***

This is the song "Feeling Good" written during the 60's by Leslie Bricusse and Anthony Newly. So, why did I put this here? Well, I got a version of this one sent to me from a friend not that long ago and I somehow like it.